MRI thoughts and reflections, is Terry the tumour still there?

Six months has come around very quickly. It seems like only a few weeks ago I had my January scan, got positive results, and then after a couple of nights out where I feel I drank a little too much for me, I decided that I needed to make a lifestyle change and stop drinking to boost my immune system and healing capacity that little bit more.

All in the aid of shrinking my tumour once and for all.

I feel like such a different version of the person I was before my diagnosis, but still the same, if that makes any sense?

My biggest dream and wish came true. The diagnosis has made me stronger, given me peace, faith, power and love, and I wouldn’t change a thing.

Now, when I’m having a hard day, I just remind myself of what I’ve been through and where I am now, and it makes me smile, feel alive and gives me the strength and energy I need. If Carlsberg Zero did Health & Wellbeing 😜

I have a check up scan on Monday and the results the following Monday (7th July) . I’m feeling good, mentally emotionally and physically. Although, I have just started feeling quite emotional these past few days. Every now and again, it sinks back in again and I remember exactly what I’ve been through and how far I’ve come from the petrified man who felt like a little boy, powerless, scared, and not wanting to be away from his parents and loved ones for too long.

The big question is, have I done enough to completely shrink “Terry” and get the all clear?!  I get goose bumps writing this as it’s something I could have only dreamed of years ago! I can’t go back now, I know too much about the potential of the human body and our ability to heal these wonderful bodies we have, and so if it’s not this time, then it will be the scan after. How lucky am I to be in the position I am in and have the knowledge and belief I do?!

Perhaps I have to be patient and not fall into the trap of trying too hard?

I’m trying not to get too attached or put too much pressure on myself. Easier said than done!

I feel so so lucky to be able to be where I am, say what I say, believe what I believe and feel how I feel.

Have I done enough to completely heal and shrink Terry? Am I trying too hard? What affect has the no booze since the end of Jan had on my immune system and my bodies ability to heal?

I appreciate this is a bit of a self indulgent post, but I’m hoping it will be useful for someone to read. It could be someone on a cancer journey, or it could just be someone who’s having a tough stressful time at the moment and needs a little proof and reminder of how much control we actually have versus how much control we feel we have over our health and our ability to deal with challenging situations and turn them into positive ones.

Thank you for all your love. I have an amazing network of friends, amazing family, and over the last few years and months  I’ve met so many wonderful people who have encouraged, supported and helped me, more than you know. Community and the love and connection it brings is one of the most powerful tools we have, and I’m blessed with mine 🙏❤️

Have a good day and take care of yourself and look forward to when we next catch up 😊

All the best

Damon

xx